You were my co-dependent
My co-defendant
My co-conspirator
But we conspired together
I found a stepping stone
It’s a place to lay my head
It’s a lonely yet safe space
I want something that will last
Though till
My last breath is taken
I wanted you to be there
Till the end but…
Feeling hostility towards a world
That I don’t particularly like
Didn’t want to be part of either
Self medicate
And find a hostage
Like you and
Call it love
We can use each other
Live a lie
And keep getting high
Till the day we die
Romanticize it
Glamourize it
You made my dark space
Seem less threatening
Because you and I could fight my demons
And all the world monsters together
But in reality, you were the monster
Don’t make me feel like an inconvenience
Cant we cohabitate again?
I need to believe a lie again
I need a hostage
because the truth hurts too much