My old friend, I have been thinking about you
I hear you have let yourself go a little
but I guess we all have to face change
and our mortality
I have aged as well
It has been a bittersweet journey
I remember what a good liar you
used to be
When I first introduced myself to you
You told me the world wasn’t scary anymore
that life was worth living
I felt a warmth and calmness
spread over my entire body
my mind was able to take a rest
no need to watch
no need to critique
no need to fear
just let the warmth spread
through my body as if it is
the love I have always seemed
to miss, give me a reason
give me a season, help me put the blinders on
but the reality is I woke 25 years later
reality hit me like a punch in my face
and soul
I have recently faced a traumatic
life changing experience and felt so alone
so alone that I almost searched for you
HEROIN
Can you save me?
make the pain stop?
your company, your lie
I wanted to be comfortably numb
again but that is no longer an option
