Floating on the water
looking up at the sky
not sure if I want to find land
or just get it over with
and die
the darkness beneath me
makes me cringe
not knowing what is lurking
in the depts of a dark sea
I look at the sky and ask
the Powers that (might) be
Please don’t let it hurt too much
I have hurt enough already
I am not afraid to die
I am just afraid of more suffering
I hope there is a better place
where we can feel past loved one’s presence
and the fear, shame, anger, and blame are gone
The fear of the dark sea under me scared me
because of the vast unknown
but the reality is the sky was
just as mysterious…
I am tired of this test, I will not kill
myself because I will be damned
if I will be punished again in the afterlife
but if it is my time to go…please
don’t make it too painful, I cant take anymore
Heart wrenching!
I won’t ask if you are okay…but sending good thoughts (and a prayer if you want) 🌸
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Im fine, lol just go to the dark side once in a while
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