My body aches, I toss and turn
trying to get into a position that
is comfortable and doesnt hurt
There was a time when I loved to cuddle
I loved the feeling of unity and bonding
but then the storm came
and the chill set in
The pain, sadness and subjective reality
that even a drug could not take away
A rude awakening as when a child finds
that the love they were denied
as a child, is not found in the streets
The deaths of friends and lovers
the walking dead of addictions
the institutions and jails designed
to profit from the poverty and
the mentally ill.
I turn over again and
try to get comfortable
the thought of someone touching me
makes me cringe
but the thought of companionship lingers
I hold on and tell myself
this is a one-shot deal
one life and one ship (body)
to carry you through the
stormy seas and when the chill sets in
hug yourself and know that you
are never truly alone…
Yes, it is all we can do when we have seen this much deep loss. Your feelings are understood. Nature too can hold you, in the calm quiet places ❤
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