I am exhausted, emotionally and physically
I have changed my life for the better and it
is a never-ending commitment
I have embraced and endured
all the criticisms and cruelty so
I look to my teachers as guides and mentors
to tell me to be strong but to my amazement,
some can be the cruelest of all,
The leaders and examples
with their own insecurities and biases.
We are supposed to be part of the change
we are social workers, counselors
and a voice for the voiceless but…
I see that ‘unless’ you compliment their mask,
platform and agenda that you are expendable
you are going to be shut down, critiqued and confused
intellectual bullies are the hardest to understand
with the passive aggressive power plays
They are supposed to be the wise, the fair
they are supposed to be selfless or so I thought
in many cases that’s far from the truth.
I have been through so much,
AIDS, Prison, violence, hate, and poverty
I can admit my part
I can take fault and take responsibility
for my past, present and future actions
so if you are my teacher and teller of these wrongs
in the world, and the injustices why are you trying to
make me feel like I dont belong?
I cant fight forever, don’t add to the pain.