I used to wake right before the break of dawn
I didn’t know what to do with myself so
I figured it would be a good time to play ball
It was barely light and I saw a child
sitting on a bench near the basketball court
I was a nervous person and I am not a team player
but I know the feeling of need and loneliness
I challenged him to a game of horse
and we talked and laughed
I found out how toxic his home was
I tried to be his hero and his friend
I would buy him things and always
want to be the fun one
The reality was nobody ever taught
me how to love someone responsibly
So my own demons led me back to
my addiction and another distraction
I left as fast as I came and went
from being a people pleaser
to leaving him abandoned, when we
have no sense of inner balance we
are extremist and while I sat in jail
I always wondered what happened to him
I went out to the park to find my
inner peace again and once more I
saw a child in need of nurturing and
affection but I do not start a relationship
now to be the (good guy) I take a real
look at my life and what I really have to offer
Sometimes just being a friendly face can make
a difference
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