Growth in hardships


As a child, I felt so uncomfortable and out of sync with the world around me and had no clue why. Once I learned to laugh/ joke as children do I became addicted to pranks and laughter as an escape. Being uncomfortable within can lead to being self-absorbed and assuming that everyone else is free game. The jokes even included laughing about being “Toothless” as well as HIV/ AIDS because it was so mysterious in its origin. The point I am making is when a lot of labels and stigmas came knocking on my door I was mortified that now I was part of those populations. I already knew what feeling overwhelmed and uncomfortable was as a child but now my problems were documented and there was no way to hide behind shallow jokes and games. Mind you I was a teen when I was going through my rebellious stage but that stage continued into a downward spiral for over 25 Yrs. My life has been a rough ride but I am happy that I learned to have a real sense of compassion and empathy. I was walking to work today and rushing like usual trying to bob and weave around people whom I consider obstacles due to anxiety, I finally said to myself you don’t have to run anymore, you can slow down and feel your body and not just the aches and pains but the spirit that is starting to glow again.




  1. What about if each obstacle was actually an angel sent on the path to make you more present? I tend to rush too and sometimes get bent out of shape about obstructions. Since reading more about being present I am learning to look at the obstacles or obstructions as messengers from spirit to be more present. I can forget at times but then I try to remind myself. Just a thought. 🙂

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  2. I agree due to the fact that i am trying to avoid eye contact and any kind of interaction with people and the sad part is my imagination is way worse than they could ever be. In doing this I have given up being present and still feel the negativity so it is fruitless…lol


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