Unconditional love is hard to define
Dos it mean (Ride or Die) ?
Does it mean that you love someone enough to
LET THEM GO?
and wish them the best?
I was very used to growing
up with CONDITIONAL LOVE
in a drop of a hat
I could be moved, thrown out
or emotionally and physically abused
depending on my guardians wacko
moods and behavior…
The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree
because I felt now that I am in charge
and proved my loyalty and feelings
with people pleasing and enabling
what could possibly go wrong??
I had no clue what a healthy relationship
looked like or felt like
I would go from hot to cold
because when I felt violated or betrayed
I would become a Psycho…
I didn’t know how to separate because
I needed someone to be my other half
(Codependency) where relationships
are more like hostages …I am scared to try
relationships again because I am doing so well
BY MYSELF but I can’t isolate forever