Unconditional love is hard to define
Dos it mean (Ride or Die) ?
Does it mean that you love someone enough to
LET THEM GO?
and wish them the best?
I was very used to growing
up with CONDITIONAL LOVE
in a drop of a hat
I could be moved, thrown out
or emotionally and physically abused
depending on my guardians wacko
moods and behavior…
The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree
because I felt now that I am in charge
and proved my loyalty and feelings
with people pleasing and enabling
what could possibly go wrong??
I had no clue what a healthy relationship
looked like or felt like
I would go from hot to cold
because when I felt violated or betrayed
I would become a Psycho…
I didn’t know how to separate because
I needed someone to be my other half
(Codependency) where relationships
are more like hostages …I am scared to try
relationships again because I am doing so well
BY MYSELF but I can’t isolate forever
RECYCLED HUMAN 
what’s written in your memory decides how you feel and see the world. You will never change the world without changing what’s written in your memory, and that you can change.
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It is scary to open your heart and feelings when you are doing well minus emotional/ intimacy/companionship etc but I am doing good so….should I care about what seems so hard to contain?
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You choose what you find the best for yourself🙂but reopening of our hearts seems to be a greatest yearning 🙂
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