Voice of reason

Why am I still alive?

Its not like I was trying

at least not in the past

A woman once questioned me

with hostility asking why I

lived and her father died..

I am talking about AIDS

I did not have an answer for her

I was sarcastic, smug and cocky

trying to hide my fear and self loathing

No, I do not know why I lived and

your father died

although this was long ago

I never forgot you

or your father whom I never met

and many friends that I have

lost to AIDS over the years

I do not know why I lived

and her father died but

I plan to find out..