Voice of reason


Why am I still alive?

Its not like I was trying

at least not in the past

A woman once questioned me

with hostility asking why I

lived and her father died..

I am talking about AIDS

I did not have an answer for her

I was sarcastic, smug and cocky

trying to hide my fear and self loathing

No, I do not know why I lived and

your father died

although this was long ago

I never forgot you

or your father whom I never met

and many friends that I have

lost to AIDS over the years

I do not know why I lived

and her father died but

I plan to find out..


  1. Powerful post that hit me right in the heart. I was diagnosed with HIV a long, long time ago and I have often asked myself why did I survive. In the darker moments, I would ask myself, has it been worth it. Being alive, is the answer to that. It hasn’t been easy but yes it’s been worth it. In this journey, I am on the same mission, exploring WHY me? Wishing you strength, courage and moments of delight on your quest. Peace, Harlon

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