I see a child on the train
instead of smiling and embracing her youth
I pity her and her fragility
I pity her future
In a world of Monsters
I stare at the child and try to understand
why an adult would want to take their innocence
It doesn’t make sense
I walk along the park and see a dead animal
then I realize it is just a plastic bag on the ground
Why am I seeing death and destruction?
Why can’t I see the joy?
I finally met someone that made me smile
It was the first person I had tried dating in years but
during our first sexual encounter, I saw him on top of
me (Who is this?) all of a sudden I didn’t know
who he was and I didn’t like him…
I had a flashback and he felt like a threat
I thrashed and told him I wasn’t scared of him
He looked at me like I was crazy and asked me to go
So I left without a word
because there was no way to explain
the heaviness in my heart
and the burden I bear
I continue and keep moving forward
hoping the pain and anxiety will fade
as I walk and look for
dead animals and future victims
This is so good!
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Thank you some times I dont know how honest I should be but I see that I am not alone in struggling
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I really love the honesty. It is very helpful to others who are working to speak the raw truth too. Very helpful.
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Sometimes I think I smell dead things too…..funny story though I have to tell you. I always think I see dead things on the road and I hate seeing dead anything. Even a little dried up worm on the side walk. I try to help little struggling things so they don’t die. Anyway , I was in the car with my family and I saw what I thought was a dead animal and said a little I’m so sorry you died prayer and my husband said, “you just prayed for a weave !!! It wasn’t an animal at all. And we laughed.
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yeah its not death that I pity it is the suffering before hand….I hate to see pain and torture because I know this world is harsh lol
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I totally agree. The idea that something suffers is unbearable.
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